Irony and Sincerety

I am realizing a lot of experiences in my life have been watered down because of the way I've been dealing with my social anxieties. I have been using irony as a huge crutch, because I am afraid of any criticism. It has affected my ability to form relationships with people. A lot of my relationships have been made because of irony. By consequence, every waking hour feels like I am living in a thick fog. It's like I have a voice in my head yelling at me that I am a loser and I can't truly enjoy anything. When I watch movies, I feel nothing. When I listen to music, I feel nothing. This habit has been in my life since I was a tween. I am not sure how I could get rid of it. I would have to put myself in the same headspace when I was a small child. I feel like most of my art is relatively sincere but it does have a thin coating of irony sometimes. I would really like to try and put more sincere art out there. Without sincerity and intent, art is meaningless.